Today my cervix measured 4 cm! Everything else is looking right on, too. We are so thrilled! It is getting old though, I must admit. I am tired of asking Robbie to do things for me...and I'm sure he is tired of his role too. That is the hardest part by far - not being able to help out...having to ask for help. I guess the roles will be reversed when I am breastfeeding.
Last weekend I longed for the opportunity to bust out of the house and go for a long soul soothing walk in the autumn sunshine. But in the words of Kenny Weber "sometimes in life there are things that you just have to do, and you don't want to." Like lie in bed while the world passes you by, perhaps. A bit over dramatic, yes. But I am antsy to get things done. I feel like there is so much to do with the house...moving all of our rooms around, painting, preparing... and all I can do is make lists...and wait for my next netflix to arrive. And so it goes...
I feel so lucky and showered with love. Out of the blue, a friend - Erica - from high school sent me 5 amazing books from Barnes & Noble. She was on bed rest too, and sent them "from one bed rest mama to another." It reminded me how wonderful old friends are, and the sweetness of girlfriends, and the bonds of motherhood. Thank you Erica, and congratulations on your little darlings!
Whenever my doctor listens to the baby's heartbeat, it's as if she's hearing it for the first time...after she counts the beats on her watch, she closes her eyes and just listens for a few seconds. Today she said "isn't it amazing?" I really love that about her...after all of the patients, deliveries, and babies, she is still so excited and passionate. I fantasize about my Dr. coming to check on me the day after we have this baby. I just know I am going to bawl my face off. It will be such a milestone - the morning after...a finale after the journey. A happy ending. When she came to check on me after Scarlet she said, with a certain light in her eyes "Isn't it a miracle?"
and she is...
"The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle."Anais Nin
